How Grief Has Changed Me

Written by Chrissi

Grief has changed the person I am, the woman that I am and continue to be. It has changed the dynamics of my life and my family’s life forever. We have broken hearts, however – we have made an honest attempt of overcoming and persevering.

How have I changed personally?

I believe that I am more compassionate to others when it comes to life situations. Suffering the loss of a child has not only opened my eyes but it has also opened my heart. Additionally, I feel drawn to those who understand my loss and to those who are going through their own trials.

I am a stronger advocate throughout my life and my family’s life – especially in circumstances that I feel compelled about making a change or a difference. I certainly am more of a voice for what I believe in.

I find that my priorities have changed to reflect what matters most to me now. Spending time with friends and family has become much more of a precedence in my life.

Friendships have changed. People that I have been close with throughout my life have distanced themselves from myself and my family, often times they were worried about what to say or how to act after the loss of our son. That in itself adds to the grief. Not only was I dealing with the loss of a child, but dealing with the loss of friendships. Incredibly heartbreaking.

I cherish my friends and family. I am fortunate to have a close tight knit group of people who know me and love me and can respect the days that I cry, the days that my heart hurts the most and the days I want to do nothing else but talk about Tyler. Rekindling a friendship from my childhood has proven to be just what my heart needed. That person, thankfully – is a forever friend.

My marriage has been strengthened. Our love is forgiving, deep and understanding. We have persevered through the worst of the worst. We have held tight to each other and our marriage. We are stronger than ever. I am proud to be his wife; he is an incredible husband and father.

I may be a more cautious Mom, fearful at times and even bordering on overly protective. However, I try to be a supportive and loving Mom. I hope that someday our son will look back and see that. I am proud of the young man he has become. He is such amazing kid who has suffered such a horrible loss in his young life.

I try to find the joy in everyday, in everyone and everything. I honestly cherish life and try to never take anything for granted. Ever.

“Have faith and someday your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you believe.” – Unknown

You can read more by Chrissi at Every Word Is A Piece Of My Heart